Help us escape abuse

 This is very long but hear me out. Please. This is our last hope. 

Hello.. I'm a 19 year old Ugandan girl from Africa. I live with my siblings at my Dad's house with my step mom. We are 3 girls, born out of wedlock and we used to live with our single mom, up until I was 5 years old. By then we were only 2, Me and my little sister, one year younger. My sister who is 14years old came later. We still dunno why we live with our dad and step mom but our mom left us. I hear she's abroad. We grew estranged and we just wish her well remembering how living with her used to be the greatest days of our life. 

Since moving to our Step mom's care (since our dad is mostly absent physically and emotionally) we have gone through alot, growing up having step siblings older than us and younger than us. As you know how most illegitimate children are treated, we are taught that we aren't entitled to anything and so we've always been grateful for the little we have gotten. Even when our tep mom only takes our siblings out, we've been quiet and just let things be, learning to find solitude in being together. In the long run, we leart to hang around each other and we we're reprimanded for it and wven some times beaten. We can't be comfortable around anyone here unless we are in the room they gave us, where all three of us sleep. 

Our step siblings ,growing up with us , have been two faced. Most of the time beating us when we make small mistakes, reminding us howtheir lives would be so much better without us consuming their bills and money ( refering to their parents's money) and when we got older, pretending to be close to us and telling our parents about every little thing we say, making them resent us more and more and so they don't even try to hide it anymore. I , myself have been sexually harrassed by the workers they bring here and they choose to turn a blind eye to all of this. My sister also was at one occasion but I was there to stop anything from worsening as the older one. I try as best as I can to be there for my sisters.Through all of this , I encourage them to be positive, promising them that the situation will get better. We are also not allowed to leave the house at any one point other than when we're being taken to local boarding schools, just the three of us, unlike our siblings who have been taken to International schools all their lives. 

I sat down, realizing the state I'm in, realising how DESPERATELY we need freedom and came to a conclusion that I have to work for them and help them have a second chance at life. A better life where they are comfortable and dont have to live in fear, anxiety and depression caused by our past traumas and present situations. We can't stand up for ourselves because of fear of being beaten and threats not to feed us anymore or pay for our school fees or be kicked out of the house by our father. It hurts me as the eldest to watch them die slowly inside , becoming withdrawn from the world and talking about ending their lives withoutbeing ableto do anything about it but talk. I've seen scars on the sister that follows me indicating self harm and when I realized it wasn't just me, I cried so hard. I cry in secret because I don't want to appear weak infront of both my toxic family and my siblings because I want them to be strong.

 I've looked for every kind of work I can to get enough money to leave here with them and start a new life. I've even decided to skip college for now and need to get out of here first before thinking anymore about my education. I've tried everything online that doesn't require important documents because my parents are very strict and controlling, they won't let me make anything that can give me financial freedom, despite everyone my age having things like these. ( Passports, Credit cards, ID's , driver's license etc.) I think they want us to remain helpless and be dependent on them only without being able to think for ourselves and all and this is a really bad thing for me who wants to leave as soon as possible. So I tried surveys and freelancing and starting a print-on-demand business and all but nothing is working and I've not made any money since I started making research last year because most of these things don't favour my backward country whose conditions don't favour these things. I've really tried everything I can but I've just failed to make the money I need to help us. And it devastates me that I might have to escape with my sisters without money or a plan and it's going to be very hard for us. At times I've even thought of selling my body as long as it gets us a place to sleep and food to eat everyday. 

Please, Please help us so that we can liberate ourselves from the clutches of these people and this household. Any amount would be appreciated as everything starts small. I couldn't start up something to make our lives better... Please help us if you can. This is what I've resorted to as a last ray of hope. I've watched your videos and what you can do so if you can, please help me. Thanks you. 

Yours Faithfully,

E K B

ps. please keep this anonymous I wouldn't want it to fall into the wrong hands

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